Stories of Grace

After three weeks in a coma, Jane was told she had been viciously attacked and left for dead in the field in which she had been preparing to ride.

“It’s a miracle I survived. I had no measurable heartbeat, blood pressure, or respiration when the EMT crew arrived. When I regained consciousness, the only muscles in my body that I could control were my eyelids. I was like a 20 year old baby.”

Jane faced a long and arduous physical rehabilitation during which she realized her even greater need for what she now calls a "spiritual rehabilitation".

“Before my head injury, I had been a ‘Christmas and Easter Christian,’ believing in God but not having a personal relationship with Him.” After waking from her coma, God whispered one word in her ear: Forgive.

Jane certainly had a lot to forgive.

“The attack left some permanent physical problems with my eyes and hands. I can no longer pick up a book and read it. I have a hard time recognizing faces. I can no longer drive, sew, play the piano, or do anything well that needs fine motor skills.”

Remembering what Jesus modeled in the Lord’s prayer, to ask the Father to forgive us, even as we forgive our trespassers, Jane began taking steps toward the call to forgive that God had whispered in her ear on her hospital bed.

“Now, I had to decide what forgiveness meant to me. I found that it is like an onion, with many layers. I had only started to scratch the surface with the Lord’s prayer.”

For many years, Jane prayed for the ability to forgive her attacker. As she began going to church regularly and studying the Bible, she found herself challenged by the Word and those teaching it to her.

“A Sunday school teacher told us to practice the command [in Matthew 5:43-4,4 to love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you]. I tried to ask God to protect my attacker. But I couldn’t.”

Realizing that there was still a measure of unforgiveness in her heart, Jane continued to ask God to bring healing and strength so that she would be able to pray for her attacker.

Fast forward sixteen years, as Jane found herself in a Bible study at Grace Bible Church, a chance remark from a friend confronted Jane once again.

“She asked me if I had considered the fact that if my attacker had repented of his sins and accepted Jesus as his Savior, that I’d see him in heaven one day.

A nagging doubt assailed me - I wasn’t sure I wanted him to go to heaven.”

As Jane continued to reflect on this idea and her feelings about her attacker’s salvation, God brought to mind a verse from Romans.

Do not take revenge, my dear friends, but leave room for God's wrath, for it is written: "It is mine to avenge; I will repay," says the Lord. Romans 12:19

“I had taken this verse to mean that God would punish the person, who was not punished for his crime on earth, by condemning him to hell.

I asked God to help me understand the ‘why’ of that verse and the Holy Spirit revealed to me meaning of the verse. In my case, namely, that God takes on our desire for vengeance and all of our other negative emotions on His shoulders. Ours shoulders are not wide enough to handle it without becoming bitter, and resentful, and un-Christlike.”

Jane would daily remind herself:

“Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you.” Matthew 5:44

Jane’s story of forgiveness has not been one of immediate ease, but a struggle in which she has had to continuously lean on God and His Word.

“Forgiving this person has been a journey for me, a spiritual reawakening, a drawing closer to God, Who has been with me every step of the way helping, comforting, teaching.”

“So, I knew what I had to do. I had to pray that this man would repent, turn to Jesus, and gain everlasting life. It was not easy at first, but God helped me.

“It is easier now.”

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Jane faithfully serves teaching 1st grade Sunday school at our Southwood Campus.

Ally Fraustro came to Texas A&M University to get an education. She came away as a committed disciple-maker.

Ally had lived a number of years in Mexico when she and her family moved to Houston, Texas. She grew up in a faith-based home and attended church every Sunday. Looking back she realizes there was a big disconnect between her and the God she knew about. She had an intellectual understanding of God but no personal relationship, nothing heart-felt.

“Coming to college I was in a place where I believed God, I prayed to God but there was no personal aspect.”

While a student at Texas A&M University a friend invited her to Grace Bible Church. During the worship service Ally noticed the people around her, their physical posture.

“Man, …..I want to worship a God like that,” Ally recalls. “Why does this God seem so much more alive here?"

Then the pastor asked everyone to open their Bibles.

“This was the first time anybody had ever invited me to open up my Bible with them.”

Ally owned a Bible but hadn’t opened it in 18 years, she never felt she needed to. As she left the service that day she knew what to do. Ally bought a Bible and read the whole New Testament on her own.

“I learned that He is a lot more than I grew up believing.”

She joined a bible study offered by her sorority. That led to a discipling relationship with a local woman which led to a most unexpected discovery. At McAlister's Deli in College Station the woman explained the Gospel to Ally.

“For the first time I was able to have a light bulb moment,” Ally recalls. “I knew the historical facts (of the Bible) but nobody had ever explained to me how that applies to my life personally.”

Ally began leading her own bible study and discipling others. As a Fellow at Grace Bible Church she took classes that delve deeper into the scriptures which led her to discover a crucial truth about discipleship.

“It isn’t just a conversation over coffee talking about life. That’s part of it, accountability is part of it, caring for one another is part of it but looking at God’s word is the most crucial part of it.”

For anyone who feels intimidated or inadequate to disciple someone Ally has some comforting advice.

“Anybody who knows God and is walking with God is capable to disciple because of who He is….They have the Holy Spirit within them and that makes them fully capable to disciple.”

There’s one more thing Ally discovered.

“If they are eager to be a disciple-maker they have to be willing to be a disciple first….with somebody older and wiser. As long as there is a person on both sides I think that you are more than ready to ….. be a disciple-maker.”

When Tony Rodger left home to attend college he drifted away from the bondage of his Christian upbringing for the freedom of the world’s values.

Growing up in a small town in northwest Iowa, population 4,000, Tony’s family attended church regularly. He stayed involved in Sunday school and youth group throughout his high school years. But something was missing...

“If you were to have asked me at that time I would have adamantly claimed I was a Christian but I did not have a relationship with Christ and I was definitely not living according to God’s word.”

Once he left home to attend college in South Dakota he no longer felt compelled to attend church.

“I was chasing life where the world tells you that life is found…in temporary moments of pleasure, in seeking my own interests, in setting myself up for a successful career.”

That went on for four years.

“Very near the end of my last semester, I woke up one morning disgusted with the man I was looking at in the mirror, and filled with regret and shame.”

Tony had applied for graduate school at several institutions. When he received a Graduate Merit Fellowship at Texas A&M, he realized he had been handed an opportunity for a new start.

“I would feel these nudges, almost whispers in my heart to go back to church to start over.”

So he made up his mind that the first thing he would do when he arrived in College Station would be to find a church.

“I think I just Googled ‘churches in College Station’ and I found Grace Bible Church toward the top of the list.”

The first Sunday he was in town he attended the family service because he was too shy to ask about the college service. On his second Sunday he stumbled across two girls who were also looking for the college group. Together they discovered that the college students met across the street. On his third Sunday he sat in the service alone until a stranger asked Tony to join him and his friends. He hung out with them during the week and enjoyed the company until they invited him to join a summer Bible study.

“I had done the ‘church thing’ growing up and honestly I thought I was too cool to do a college Bible study.”

Nevertheless, Tony reluctantly agreed.

“I sat there quiet, mostly feeling like a fraud that didn’t belong.”

The same group of guys encouraged Tony to continue with them into a fall semester Bible study. Tony joined a class, “Essentials of the Christian Faith.” At the same time an undergraduate technician who worked with Tony invited him to Breakaway.

“That night [at Breakaway] Ben Stuart said something…that felt like God shot an arrow through my heart. [Ben said] ‘I think God will give to you or take from you whatever is needed for you to find Him’.”

A thousand miles away from the home, Tony left all his family and friends behind and these long distance relationships strained with distance.

“I remember lying in bed the first two nights in College Station until the early, early hours of the morning feeling incredibly alone, lost, and wondering why the heck I chose to move so far away and leave myself with nothing.”

In hindsight, Tony learned why.

“God knew the only way He could get through to me was by stripping away everything else in my life and leaving me to wrestle with Him.”

And wrestle he did.

“I remember hanging out with some fellow graduate students where the conversation turned to mocking those who believe in God…and I felt torn to my very core. The world was trying to convince me that I could not be both a man of faith and a graduate student in a scientific field.”

Tony felt he had to resolve this conflict.

“I read as many books [on Christian apologetics]…that I could get my hands on. I found debates [online] between secular and Christian scientists…all in an effort to lay out every question, every doubt, every perceived inconsistency I thought existed…which I hoped would lead to a fatal flaw that would allow me to just leave the notion of Christianity behind and be free to return to my past life guilt free.”

That was the real struggle. To live the life he wanted free of guilt.

“The opposite happened. I found I could no longer deny the historicity of the person of Jesus, nor His death and resurrection for the forgiveness of my sins.”

And Tony discovered he could be both a man of faith and embrace a career in a scientific field.

“I found my journey through these difficult questions was incredibly rewarding and I wanted to share that experience with others.”

Today, Tony is a Fisheries Biologist for the Oklahoma Department of Wildlife. He uses material developed by Grace Bible Church to lead a young adult Bible study and a study for high school students. He also volunteers for Life Launch, an organization whose purpose is to mentor youth about to age-out of the foster care system.

“After I became a Christian my focus began shifting from myself to others.”

Tony is no longer ridden with regret and shame.

“Christ…changed the things that entertain my heart. He changed the movies I watch, the music I listen to, the jokes I find funny. Christ changed how I navigate relationships as well.”

As a result of his journey and what God taught him along the way, Tony has some sage advice for incoming college freshmen.

“Your parents’ faith is not going to take you through college. It’s okay to ask questions. God is truth, so He is not afraid of you looking for truth. A lot of you will be looking for ‘freedom’ from parents, from church, from rules. You don’t want to spend four years collecting hurts and regrets from following the advice of the world to find out all along the only freedom to be found is that which is in Christ Jesus.”

Tony has advice for graduating college seniors as well.

“Find a local church and get plugged in! Then find a way to serve your church. Find a community group/small group of believers to do life with. Church is not meant to be spent entirely in rows, so much growth happens in circles.”

Though Tony has no children of his own he cautiously offers some advice for parents of college-bound teens.

“There are incredibly intelligent people that view faith as a crutch for the weak. [Your kids’] faith will be challenged. Disciple your kids in the ways of the Lord, raise them in church, yes, but also…show by example what it means to be a Christian. Focus on their relationship with Christ, not just a list of things that they do to check the ‘church’ box. A faith that has been challenged and withstood that test will be unshakeable.”

Then Tony touches on perhaps the hardest thing for any loving Christian parent to do.

“After you’ve done all that you can do you have to turn them over to God. It’s hard to fathom but God loves them even more than you do.”

Tony Rodger’s story is evidence of that.